Muscatine

I can't tell you what to do, but I can tell you all of us have difficulties in our lives.  Sometimes they can be really overwhelming.  I would never "jump"  or check out in any other way.  

I couldn't have said it any better than Kenn did.  He is fighting for his very life, and he keeps fighting! He realizes how precious life is. 

Good luck to you.  You have a choice here.  Many do not.

I just read your post while sitting in ouf motel room in South Carolina and like all the other posters I care about you and would like to help in any way I can.  Many years ago I thought about ending my life but chose to follow the advice of others who cared about me.  I know this is your first post but you should already see that we all care about you but it is you, and only you who who can do that.  Kenn knows what it is like to face death that is not of his choosing and he is fighting to live each day to its fullest.  Listen to him and others and keep posting.  Add LionJack to those who care.