Muscatine

Jack

that so says how my mom was thats were all the pics and newspaper articles are comming from lol

wroe

Before we start, please close your eyes & feel the hug I'm sending to you? Close your eyes. I hope you can feel it?
Wroe, I have SO BEEN in the place you are; I still am, KIND of? I have cussed God out, I've given Him the finger, you name it, I've done it! WHY DO SOME OF US HAVE TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH MORE HE** THAN OTHERS? ''Just when you think you have it all figured out, life ONCE AGAIN deals you a rotten hand.'' I've asked God many times just HOW WIDE HE THINKS MY ***** shoulders are?
Here is the bottom line, wroe. I had God's guidance in my life for quite some time, & appreciated it. Then I was challenged. I became angry & hateful. I suffered & so did my family. I got to the point that I knew I needed something more than what the world offered.
I don't know why the world works the way it does. It is NOT FAIR & IT'S NOT OK.
Did you give your children gifts at Christmas? That holiday really does have a meaning. God sent His son to live in our world & to experience what we experience. Even Jesus doubted his Father in the Garden.
Believe what you will, it's ok. You have people in this neighborhood that care about you & your family. We will pray for all of you, everyday.
Stay strong, keep us all posted & don't be afraid to ask for help. I promise, I won't preach to you. Stay strong, wroe. I'm sending you another hug.

Wroe

I think tlou said it all quite well. Her sentiments should be heeded and dealth with in the manner she suggested.

No, God has not answered all my prayers or saved friends and family that I love and care for but I know he has been there. I have prayed and still pray for those who mean so much to me. My friend Kenn is fighting and surviving cancer and even though he has had a setback, we still continue to pray for his cure.

I can understand your feelings and I am sure God has placed a lot of burdens on you but he always has a reason. Prayer is one way to communicate with him so do not give up hope. Someone I loved who was diabetic was in danger of having a foot amputated. Then the foot was beginning to heel and everything was going well. All of a sudden, the foot turned ugly and it appeared that amputation was the only way to go. I prayed that night so hard I thought I was in danger of dying from the frustration and pain. The very next morning there was no sign of infection and the foot was entirely healed. In my prayer I had asked God to take my foot or leg or even my life but to spare this person and he did answer my prayer.

A final thought if I may. I used to question why we had so much suffering in the world and I voiced my feelings to my grandmother. She told me that we were not to question the will of God and I would say to her, ?“then why did he give me a brain if not to question??” I have learned since my young years that it is not necessary to question because there are happier days ahead.

If you feel like it, email me. I am here for you also.

Jack & Wroe

Sorry I am so late on this but I was out of town today.
Jack,
I try to live what you describe and it has helped me.
Wroe,
I have walked in your shoes, so I know the feelings and frustrations.
I lost a brother to cancer in 2006.
I have been fighting this battle since December 2004, hell of a Christmas present. I have been in remission twice, once for 14 months and the last time for 4 months.
Next Wednesday I will be going to University hospital to see if I qualify for or, if I want a stem cell implant procedure.
This decision will be made after a 10 day vacation to get my head screwed on straight and hopefully a little relaxation.Then on February 4th I will see my Doctor to decide what road I go down.
I can keep on taking treatments and hope they continue to work until they find a cure.
If I take the stem cell implant it means large doses of chemo plus large doses of radition. Also it means 6 to 8 weeks of isolation in the hospital with 6 months to 1 year recovery at home. If it works things will be fine if not I may be in a chair for life.
The one thing I can tell you is to stay positive above all else and be there for them as it really helps.
Good luck.